## Layne

### by Fish
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Dear Readers,

I am so appreciative to know there is a web site that contains information and other victims of Mind Control.

I am a white, male, 36 year old college educated man from Northern New Jersey. I grew up and still live an a affluent suburb in close proximity to N.Y.C. Many residents commute to the city working in high income/profile careers. Such as stock brokers, patent lawyers, international finance executives etc. If you can compete in this community; you can make it anywhere. Unfortunetly, I have the disease of alcoholism/drug addiction. I did not ask for it or do I consider myself lucky or gifted. I have always had to work twice as hard as others because of my addiction I was and still am my "own worst enemy", for lack of a better term. Every time I get sober it is always long enough to get my career back on track, mend my relationships with family and friends, have my own home etc. When I relapse, it is a "doo! sy!" That is why I was chosen out of hundreds of thousands of people who suffer from alcoholism. I met all their qualifications to become their test subject.

I have been in and out of recovery for the last 15 years. As best as I can tell, I was "recruited sometime around 1993. I do not claim to be perfect. I am not an angel. I have been arrested for "simple possesion" and open container of alcohol. This is where I was discovered. Through the court system. But I served my time in the county jail as well as years of probation within the county I live in. This Mind Control has taken on many different "stages" or "levels". The first being that these voices were portraying themselves as law enforcement and not responding to my own thoughts just talking and recording my actions or reactions to there dialogue or scripted lines that they would say to! me. Talking to me as if I was going to be arrested at any time. They played the you are under surviellence role. To see how I think and react to their stimulus. That was in 1993! Now, several trips to rehabs, two relapses , short stays at the county jail, countless delemas and problems, they are still alive and well in my life. I hear there talking or "dialogue" constantly. Everything that is said is scripted and spoken for a particular reason. All designed to create feelings within me to observe and record. But this has become a physical torture as well. The technical devices they control can manipulate my pulse, stress levels, heart rate, etc. It has become quite abusive and cruel. Especially if I am living my! life the way they do not want me too. I get obscenities and ridiculed all day long. Negative input is constant and relentless. Wheather it is teasing, mocking, making things up to worry about etc. Saying "my health is failing" or "you are a loser and a nobody!" We will not stop until we want to. This is the kind of world I live in everyday, every minute of my life for the last 5-7 years.

I receive regular physical abuse from the high tech devices. Often my pulse and blood pressure can be increased by electromagnetic frequencies or microwave. My stress level is elevated by subliminal dialogue from them. It is always the voices of one woman and one man. As far as I can tell anyway. The volume and pitch remains low enough that individuality cannot be reconized.

They say to get sober and remain sober and have a life happy and healthy in recovery, you must work the 12 steps. Well, those steps are based on spiritual principles of peace, goodwill, serenity etc. Of which is impossible to acheive under the goverments constant surveillence and verbal and physical abuse! I am scared, lonely and feel very hopeless. My life has changed forever and no end in sight. How can this be allowed to happen in this day and age. My rights have been stripped and thrown away. I never imagined something like this existed, much less transpiring right before our eyes. You cannot see them (unless they let you from a distance) only hear them and "feel" them. I have been told on many occations that their intentions are good and true, that they want to see me happy and sober and after a significant period of sobriety, they will "leave". Yea, and I am going to hit the lottery today!

Presently I feel depressed and hopeless that my life will ever be the same let alone "normal". The freedoms and rights that all our citizens of the United States of America enjoy have been taken away from me. I see no end in sight and do not know what to do or what avenues to pursue. There is much more involved that I could not possibly describe in this one letter. I am asking for help and assistance from those of you who have the knowledge and experience dealing with these situations. I am just a guy trying to "make it" in life like anyone else. I would greatly appreciate anyone to talk to and receive input on solutions to this crime that is being done on an everyday basis. Thank you all for your time and trust. Take care and God Bless you all

Sincerely, "Layne"

Received 2-18-2002