## Johnny Kutan

> When I was a child my parents allowed a doctor with ties in the government to perform "tests" on me. Ever since then I have always suffered from things such as extreme headaches, hearing random noises, and also having voices appear in my head telling me to do things.

> As I grew older these symptoms began to get increasingly worse, but I managed to think of them as normal and do nothing. After my 21st birthday the voices and headaches began to grow increasingly worse so I decided to visit a doctor. This doctor assured me that nothing was wrong and quickly dismissed me from his office.

> After the visit everything began to get worse. The headaches became so severe I would almost pass out from pain, and the noises and voices became so loud I could never focus on anything but the voices themselves. I started to stay inside at all times and I would not talk to anyone or except for a few close friends and family members, but even that was seldom.

> A few weeks after the visit my close friends started to try to help me. They tried to take me places to help me take my mind off the voices and pain, but it always went badly. Every time I would leave the house the voices and headaches would become more severe.

> After going out a few times I began to notice dark cars following me everywhere I went and people wearing long coats who always seemed to be watching me. This put an abrupt end to my little trips. I declined any further offers from my friends to do anything outside of my house.

> A little while later more things began to happen. In the middle of the night the banging and crashing noises I usually heard began to sound like gunshots happening outside of my residence. Also cars seemed to have begun blaring their horns as they drove past my house at all hours of the night. The voices became stronger and started to tell me things such as I was going to be killed.

> This has been happening for a few months now and I am trying to find a way to fight against this so I can begin living a normal life without the government trying to interfere.

> Received 7-11-2003