> ## Linda Gonzalez
> American Survivor

> Update 07-16-2004

> #### Solving The Mystery of Signals of Pain

> Throughout recent years of experiencing sadistic abuse, I tried to understand how human beings could have banded together, to stalk and torture an innocent victim. I had seen countless stalkers using hand signals, other gestures and choreographed routines, in the daily "hunting" of their prey. It was as if the stalkers were acting out their intentions, or the crimes that they had already committed against the target.

> Occasionally it had been possible to find published information on the specific behaviors involved in gang brutality, and their meaning, but generally this was an area that had too often been left untalked about. Yet, it had seemed that signals were constantly used by stalkers for several purposes, some of which are listed here:
> 1) To break down the victim
> 2) To segregate the victim
> 3) To register "votes", or the orders of people they worked for, as to what should be done to the victim
> 4) To identify themselves
> 5) To bond with each other
> 6) To visibly demonstrate that they considered themselves above the law
> 7) To get the victim to report the behaviors so that he or she would be labeled insane

> Targets, stalkers and many in the urban community knew the difference between casual body language and intentional signals. Those distinctions were not the mystery. Signals were not secret. If they had been, there wouldn't have been so many people using them, in plain view, and so many others suffering as a result of them. Why weren't signals talked about? Was it that they were sacred? I didn't think that targets would agree with that.

> For targets who'd experienced this kind of abuse, one of the most difficult aspects of it would have been having to see local merchants, neighbors, church members, authorities, even occasional distant family members, using signals that correlated with the victim's ongoing physical torture. It appeared that somehow the community had been desensitized. While this could have been the result of smear campaigning of the target by the perpetrator, what couldn't be explained was why seemingly nice people would have colluded, even when the target was reporting pain and permanent physical injury.

> Gang signals were probably as old as man. I thought a target would have been more likely to want to talk about them than a perpetrator would have been, particularly if that target had been physically maimed, and had previously been completely naive about gang terrorism. Yet, I noted, very few targets mentioning specific signals, even as they sought urgently needed humanitarian aid, justified by that terrorism.

> Modern technology for years of social control seemed a plausible explanation for the desensitization and the silence, but that technology alone was not the answer to the mystery of why this had been happening. I realized that people had to consciously and willfully work undeterred, to overcome major external and internal influences, in order to get to the truth and the solutions, and rescue the torture victims, right away.

> People who had experienced gang signals during years of physical torture, knew that the signals had often correlated with unrelenting psychological degradation, painful disfigurement, human experimentation, and in some cases abduction. Gang colors and formations had also been used as signals. Street theater was too nice a phrase to describe what had actually gone on, in the lives of these victims. Surely if the community knew, law enforcement and intelligence agents knew about these methods. If the authorities would have come forward and told about the usage of signals, maybe millions of torture victims, around the world, could have been rescued.

> If you had been a target in a densely populated urban area, there might have been five stalkers per block. If you had just walked ten blocks to your destination, by the time you made your return trip, you might have been exposed to 100 signals (5 per block, times 10 blocks, times 2 ways, to include return trip). If you'd been targeted for years, to quantify your experience, you'd have multiplied 100 signals per day, times 365 per year, times the number of years you'd been a target. I did the math and realized that the number was so large, that even targets would be shocked at it's size. I also realized though, that even if you had been targeted in a small town, signals could have been just as devastating, because you'd depended on a smaller group of people to respond in a humane way.

> This had really happened.

> The mystery of signals seemed to be solved more and more, though, as I focused more and more, on facing the truth, and wanting to rescue the victims. Rescuing the community seemed to be required for the rescue of the targets.

> I knew that victims shouldn't have doubted themselves, blamed themselves or felt like they were the only ones who'd experienced constant terrorism and brutality. They hadn't deserved the cruel way in which many people had treated them. No one did.

> If someone had gotten hit by a car, he wouldn't have been required to chase the car, to prove what had happened, or to explain why that car, or the ones that followed, ran over him. We would have rescued him, immediately.

> The U.S. has needed to rescue victims of torture in America- -immediately.

> First I want to say that I've really appreciated the accounts of others in this forum. I've gone through each and every one, communicating with some of the members, and that has been a great help. I appreciate the dedication of the web manager, Heart, and the founder, Ed Light, as well.

> For some reason, I'm not yet ready to put my story into account form, though I've told bits and pieces of it, to hundreds of people by now.

> Like others, I've gone through years of pain and damage, which could have been prevented or stopped, at a thousand different points, if the system had functioned, as it was designed to.

> One interesting thing that I've learned is that I had been very naive, idealistic and innocent for almost half a century. If I had known what so many others seem to have been taught from childhood about gang stalking and the capabilities and availability of electronic and biotechnology weapons, I would have lived my life more defensively, as if in an oppressive society, instead of depending on the system to protect me and the basic freedoms, that I thought were guaranteed.

> I've been injured badly by cumulative violence, permanent physical degradation, and dishonesty, even by those who should have protected me. Throughout this nightmarish ordeal, I've wanted to be fully debriefed, privately, by honorable people, but by definition, the experience of being a target precludes that.

> When people ask you as targets "Why you?", I encourage you to respond: "It has nothing to do with who we are. People of all ages, men, women, children, people of all backgrounds, scientists, workmen, human service professionals, housewives, nice, unique, innovative, innocent, gifted and special people of all kinds have been targeted--for generations. Many have been destroyed or killed."

> I think about targets who have been abducted through the years. I think about the helpless in nursing homes and institutions, the infants, foundlings, the elderly, the crippled, and the confined. I think about everyday people and people in authority. I think that in all of these groups there are experimentees, on whom electronic or biotechnological methods have been used, to manipulate, to infirm, or to kill.

> Advances in supercomputers, communications, biochips, and bioengineering, should be used for good. Street theater lets us know that man's ability to manipulate and alter man is only a secret to the most innocent and the most insulated. Our own neighbors have been recruited to carry out a modern silent holocaust,without remorse.

> Just because something evil has been in the making for a hundred years or so, doesn't mean it should be continued, and allowed to escalate exponentially.

> One group has called for a ban on covert technology which can lead to an "Orwellian" state. I think that we surpassed the Orwellian state on a global level a long time ago, and if I had to give the current state a new name, it would make the name "Orweillian" seem mild by comparison.

> Gratefully we see hope! People from all over the world are working to stop the madness and save civilization and all of our institutions.

> I prayed sometime ago for personal rescue, guided to believe that a God of love always responds to ernest prayers. Here's what I have visualized as the miracle of rescue:

> I've pictured a mash unit called "Stripes" for suvivors of torture in the U.S., where the doctors are kind, and have technical knowledge superior to that of the perpetrators, and where it is safe to talk, because there is privacy. This healing place is surrounded by a community for survivors, "American refugees". Survivors can live and know that they can sleep safely or go outdoors, without being assaulted by invisible weapons, or physically violated by other people. This is a place where survivors know that their homes are safe from repeated invasion, and that when they go outside, whether it is day or night, they will be greeted by the waves of caring survivors. Having been stalked has become a forgotten memory. Our communities are built upon the spaces, the bases, compounds and the complexes, no longer needed for secret experiments. I have believed for:

> - for humanitarian relief
> - for the best care for health and safety
> - for allies, local and from around the world
> - for helpers
> - for people that we can help
> - for the years of the documentation of lives and our stories to be used by honorable people to generate solutions
> - for our reputations to be cleared
> - for privacy
> - for all of the rest of our human rights
> - for the health and security of non-targeted people
> - for the isolation to stop and the talks to start
> - for people to stop punishing the victims of this holocaust
> - for the diagnoses and disorders to be properly applied to the law breakers and the system flaws
> - for full debriefing by honorable people
> - for everyone to experience respect, caring, understanding, appreciation, trust and acceptance
> - for our needs to be fully met
> - for freedom
> - for everyone's life to count
> Email: GonzalezNYF@aol.com
> Tel. 212-867-4217
> Address:
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> Murray Hill Station
> New York, NY 10156

> Received 07-06-2004