## Cryssie Leigh

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> I am a hypno-programmed govermnent sex slave/assassin. They have been programming me from birth under the guise of "psychiatry". These people have abused me in a satanic cult which worships Norse "master race" gods and told us if we died in battle (being "super soldiers") we would go to Valhalla. The programming was fight club-esque but if I give out names of handlers/masters I will be killed. I really want to be deprogrammed. Seems everyone I get into a relationship with is a master or another slave. Someone help me I just need to talk to others like me!

> I come from a family on one side of blonde/blue french/germans (Alcase/Lorraine). Both children are blonde/green. Those who have kept me are intent on perpetuating their "master race". They are using me to breed them.

> I have also been withheld food/water by previous "god" I am now divorcing. He had total control of my mind., I was not allowed toilet privileges (in psychiatric hospital "rubber room":)(which I was told by Mental Health Center I broke out of by pulling the bricks out of the wall, however if I ever confront these people with these abuses they call me crazy and say it never happened and use it as an excuse to put me on antipsychotics.)

> The have molotov coctailed 2 residences I lived in, set one on fire, and sprayed bullets at another. I no longer fear death. I was an abused child slapped around since birth. Mom still insists I was born "wrong" and was mentally ill and incorrigible from birth. Testing started in utero. Mother's ob-gyn is in same building as mental health center that has tortured me w/ mental abuse, threats of committment to sanitariums for 2 years if I wont take their experimental drugs or let them shock me.

> I was severely beaten in "The Family" (cult) to near death experiences. Sexual abuse started as a child and my mother encouraged my sexual behavior as a teen by putting me on birth control @ age 13.

> I became sexually active with older men at age 12 especially those involved with "The Golden Dawn" etc. or children of families w/ Masonic Temple links (My soon-to-be-ex-husband's father was a high- ranking Mason and his mother was a blonde/blue Austrian Jew. Since the programming by the family I have not been able to be in a relationship which did not involve control/domination/manipulation/abuse.

> I go to a Domestic Violence support group but I have a hard time being alone and breaking out of the master habit. The abusive men like to accuse me of being a bad mother and report to Social Service agencies that I have Dissociative Identity Disorder and I don't take my antidepressants (which I do)because they know and play on my worst fears by gaining my trust (rule #1: trust no one, that's what the family taught me) and using all gathered intelligence about my deepest fears and insecurities (which I share because I need to get over them to ever deprogram) to harrass, stalk and terrorize me. It's like having 2 personal demons haunting you at once.

> My mother used to use those psych warfare tactics on me..... The worst part is a part of me fights my quest to have someone deprogram me. It wants to be a government assassin. I still train every chance I get in martial arts and soon I will be doing weapons training as soon as my handler says its ok. If anyone knows how 2 deprogram and wants to help my 16 month old and I lead a normal life please help.

> Received 10-27-2004